The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark.

– Michelangelo

Why Do I Write? 40 Reasons Challenge!

Bryan Hutchinson' challenge has challenged me a lot.  And I accepted the challenge! Well, I never thought in this detail why I write?

1. I write because I feel alive when I write.
2. I write to organize my thoughts.
3. I write because I am very passionate writer.
4. Writing is my best hobby.
5. I write because writing is fun.
6. When I write I feel connected to other who could possible read.
7. I write to share my opinion.
8. I write to express my love.
9. I write to express my feelings.
10. I write to get others understanding.
11. I write to encourage people to be their best.
12. I write to express my opinion about personal behaviors.
13. I write to comment on political situations.  
14. I write my review on books.
15. I write to comment public services.
16. I write my breath of the day and the vibration in it.
17. I love to write the way the stars communicate with me.
18. I write my feelings to be understood.
19. I write my life because it is worth to remember.
20. I write to get inspirations.
21. I write to share my inspirations with others.
22. I write to teach.  I am a great teacher who is life long learner.
23. I write to keep the memory of my children's childhood.
24. I write to vent my hard times.
25. I write to feed my ego.
26. I write because my pen is my best friend.
27.  I write to think clearly.
28.  I write to think deeper.
29.  I write to get more courage to write.
30.  When I write I feel connected to the other world.
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40. I write because I am a writer.

One Step Towards Democracy - I don't need This When I Grow Up

This week Kirubel, my third child who is four years and half, is asking me to buy him many toy cars. Almost everyday, very seriously.  

One morning Kirubel wake up early morning to remind me to buy him the cars today.

Kirubel:  "Mom"

Me:        "Today you should buy my cars."

Thinking in search of a way out (and usually this is how I stop kids questions of 'buy me this', 'buy me that')

Me:  "Kirubel, I am buying you foods, clothes because these are what you need to survive and more I am paying you at good school and stationery. Such luxury things you will buy by yourself when you grow up"

Kirubel:  "Mom! what is wrong with you?"

Me:        shocked with the way he said "What?"

Kirubel:  "I don't need these toys when I grow up because I don't play when I grow up.  

Me:  "Really?"

Kirubel: "Mom, Don't you know grown ups don't play with toy cars? They drive a real car.  When I grow up I will buy a real car.  So, now you have to buy me a toy car now."

Sorry for my daughters, most of the time when they asked me to buy a toy this was my answer.  They were convinced and they don't ask that much. I just buy them with my own convenience.   Their brother managed to challenge my common answer. To be fair, I shouldn't buy him.  But, to be democratic, who believe in discussion at least for this time I am convinced and bought him one.  And I think this is one step or one stone towards democracy and building citizen with true belief on dialog.

      

Why Do You Need All These Kids?

My oldest daughter Eden was three and half years old when I have my third child.  My husband and I thought we have done all the brain washing very well with both our daughters about for them to feel nice about the new comer baby boy.  From the day we came from hospital with their brother they were seriously following up how is he? How much everybody is carrying for him? And more importantly how much he was occupying me?

In his third day with the family Eden came to me to ask me very serious question without forgetting to behave nice with him.

Eden:  "Mom"

Me:     "Yeas Eden"

Eden:  "Why do you need too many children?"

I was shocked to hear this from three and half years old girl.  But I choose to listen to her and see how much is she understanding the situation.

Me:    "Which Children?"

Eden: "You have me; and then you came with Saron, my sister (still behaving nice); and now you have our brother  and then ......."

"Why do you need all of us? I mean Why?"

I just kept quite.  I don't have words to say at all. She was totally overwhelmed and she has expressed herself very well in a very humble way.   Honestly, I was also overwhelmed.  Maybe she have noticed that also.

I told my husband when he came home.  I called my mom and dad and told them.  We laughed a lot. And then as a mom who cares the deepest feeling of her children, the challenge they may face if we keep going for the more kids,  I have noted her comment very well and stayed with the three of them. 

Now, Eden is eight her sister six and her little brother is four and half.  We are taking our time to enjoy life with them and thinking seriously why do we need too many children?

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."
―Albert Einstein

“The memory of God comes to the quiet mind.  It cannot come where there is conflict; for a mind at war against itself remembers no eternal gentleness.”

-          A Course in Miracles

He could see Bonzo's Anger growing hot.  Hot anger was bad. Ender's anger was cold, and he could use it.  Bonzo's was hot, so it used him.  

The Alchemist

"Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced."  - John Keats

“We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”  Albert Einstein 

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other. 

Source: Brainy Quote/mother teresa.

There is only one God and He is God to all; therefore it is important that everyone is seen as equal before God. I've always said we should help a Hindu become a better Hindu, a Muslim become a better Muslim, a Catholic become a better Catholic.

Source: Poet Seers/mother teresa. 

"True imagination is not fanciful daydreaming; it is fire from heaven."  - Ernest Holmes

“Your imagination is able to do all that you ask in proportion to the degree of your attention.”

 Neville

“If we stop for a moment, it is possible to perceive a pattern in our lives; the motivators that have influenced us become more obvious. We are able to see life unfolding from both ends at once, coming into the present moment.” — Reshad Feild

“To be empty, completely empty, is not a fearsome thing; it is absolutely essential for the mind to be unoccupied; to be empty, unenforced, for then only can it move into unknown depths.”  J. Krishnamurti 

Passion

“Passion is a feeling that tells you: this is the right thing to do.  Nothing can stand in my way.  It doesn’t matter what anyone else says.  This feeling is so good that it cannot be ignored.”  Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at changes. 
Dr. Wayne Dyer

“Just as the pure crystal takes color from the object which is nearest to it, so the mind, when it is cleared of thought-waves, achieves sameness or identity with the object of its concentration.”
— patanjali

We are ONE …. We are the World …..

Last Saturday, I was enjoying at home with my kids. My door is knocked. It was the health worker as usual to give vaccination for Polio. My kids have got the vaccination at school two days ago.  I have informed her and she left. But, she didn’t left from my heart. With sincere donation of Melinda& Gate Foundation I am raising healthy and strong kids. I start to think further. What if they didn’t do this?  Ofcourse, God has his own way. But on this very issue they allowed him to use their life and most moms of this age even in the poorest countries are raising polio free kids and more free health service for kids and moms. Deeply thinking of this, I just believe we are ONE. I mean all the people of this world are ONE. I just can’t make a big deal of all the politics and I strongly believed we all are one family who care to eachother to this depth without even knowing in person. 

LIFE is the Journey

The challenges, ups and downs towards a Big Dream is LIFE. This is the important part of life we should love and enjoy. Achieving such a Big Dream may cause sudden illness and death unless replaced by another Big Dream.

We have heard may successful people who passed away shortly after achieving big success. Even post-maternal depression is one good example. The process to achieve Big Dreams give importance to life and gives continuous courage and of course it has a lot of pain and pleasure. After achieving a Big Dream loosing that Big Courage is frustrating. Life is all about the process of achieving Big Dreams with the courage, the pain and the pleasure.